21/04/2008

Nowadays very easy to get angry… not because of the hot weather, it is because that too many things need to handle at the same time. I could not find someone to talk to, seen like everyone is having their own problems so better not to disturb them. Just need to find a place to express my feeling and release my temper.

I’m hardly control my emotion now, my dad again call me going back the stay with them in Johor. I do not know what I am going to answer him. He sound like very tired, previously he was having a heart attack, so now his condition were not fully recover. Its sound bad, I do not know how to express my concern to him, sometime I was worrying and care them, but just that I don’t know how to express it. And end up I’m only a selfish daughter. Or maybe I’m that selfish, just that I dint realized about it. How am I going to show them I care about this family? Sigh…

Did they think behalf on me? Ok, first of all, which college am I going to? Johor dint have any good college moreover Diploma in Information Technology. After all I dint recognize the place at all, what I means the road from one destination to another destination. Huh!!! Just forget about it… But the main point is I have no friend over there. Not even one, is none… how am I going to live without my buddies? As a parent you should understand, I already stay in Penang for almost 20 years, I have so many friends here; I had too much sweet memory with my buddies here. I really don’t know who am I going to live there without you guys.

I know I’ am not that good as others, but I do thanks you guys so much for being so friendly to me. Sometime I due to be so stubborn, and sometime even made you all not comfortable with my attitude; If you feel so then I would like to apologize here. Sometime I was just trying to made fun of it, but end up I had made someone angry and fed up. What am I trying to said is I don’t know how to express something which I want in a proper way but end up it turns more complicated.

While I was telling someone I going to leave soon, she told me that will be going to leave as well, some more sooner than me. Hmmm… What am I trying to say ah? I was too bad to say that I going to leave soon, but now feel like getting sadder towards your leaving. But what to do, as in life is like that, everyone who born to this world must have the acceptation of get-together and leaving. But I sure our friendship won’t be end up here, but will getting more lasting. Don’t you?

After you leave me, I will be going to leave my buddies as well. I really don’t know how many boxes of tissue just to wipe my tears. Buddies, I really can’t imagine how am I going to live there without you guys. They used to being involved in part of my life seen eight to seven years ago. They use to help me, motivate me, and care me a lot. We had apartment stay almost every years, celebrate birthdays for each of our buddies, hang out for almost every month and many sweet memories it happen between us. It means a lot to me. I do appreciate it, thanks a lot…

Friend is not only share joy and happiness

But we do share pain and sadness

I borrow you me shoulder to lean on

And you help me to wipe my tears

I’m wondering how we will said the same words, same tone at the same time

I’m wondering how you get to know what I am thinking about

When we meet together we bring two different souls together

When we talk together others only heard one voice

Friendship is a refreshing rain on a hot day

Friendship is more precious than silver or gold

Friendship is not perfect, much like we are not perfect

Friendship is the relationship within you and me

No matter how far we are

No matter how old we are

Our friendship will remain the same

This is the promise between us

I hope you read this poem

Remember it for me

Look after it with care

You and me!!