I love you mummy...

OK… 30 April what a special toward you guys? Is the day where I was born to this world… well first of all I would like to thanks my mummy which give born me to this world and care me all the way. Actually I was really hope that someone will thanks my mother on my birthday, but until now I still dint get any message which thanks my mum for her patience of taking care and teaching me for so many years and going to worries for don’t know how many years.

When I was still baby she taught me how to eat, How to drink, even how to talk. When I was kindergarten, she taught me to do homework, taught me ABC and 123. Mummy used to repeat the same thing again and again when I couldn’t understand. But she did not scold me even though I repeat the same mistake repeating more than once. After I move to primary school, she teaches me how to make friend, how to respect teacher and be responsible to everything I did. Mummy used to explain whatever I did wrongly and teach the proper way for not doing that same mistake again.

Seen I was in secondary, she teach me of making a good friend and how to be a wonderful person. We must learn to take and give, which means we don’t only aspect something from others, but we also must think behalf on people around us, help theme them as in they need your help. I was wondering how wonderful do you aspect from me mummy? Nothing much more I can do to others. I really proud of my mum which tell me “girl I dint aspect you to become a doctor or any professional industry, You just do whatever you think you are right, Do respect people around you let other people respect yourself, then you will be a wonderful person. Thanks mummy...

But after few years daddy was move to Johor and work there, they used to leave me with my grandma in Penang. Mummy will still call back and asking for my result, how was my situation in Penang and so on. Today mummy used to call me and wish me happy birthday… how blissful am I? Thanks god for giving me a wonderful mother in this world. Thanks mummy for giving me a wonderful childhood, a better environment of studying and your care toward me. I love you mummy…

My Mother gave me birth,
Taught me how to drink, how to eat,
How to talk, how to walk.
She made me to this wonderful person.

My Mother taught me how to behave me,
How to be a respectful person,
How to love my family, my friends,
How to be a kind, and be her kid.

My Mother did a lot for me.
Sometimes I wonder,
'Do I deserve to have this wonderful person?

Yes, I do,
And I am proud,
To be her kid and I will say today,
And every other day,
'I love you mummy…’

For you

不要问不要说一切尽在不言中

这一刻偎著烛光让我们静静的渡过
莫挥手莫回头当我唱起这首歌
怕只怕泪水轻轻的滑落
愿心中永远留著我的笑容
伴你走过每一个舂夏秋冬

几许愁几许忧人生难免苦与痛
失去过才能真正懂得去珍惜和拥有
情难舍人难留今朝一别各西东
冷和热点点滴滴在心头
愿心中永远留著我的笑容
伴你走过每一个春夏秋冬

伤离别离别虽然在眼前
说再见再见不会太遥远
若有缘有缘就能期待明天
你和我重逢在灿烂的季节
伤离别离别虽然在眼前
说再见再见不会太遥远

若有缘有缘就能期待明天
你和我重逢在灿烂的季节
不要问不要说
一切尽在不言中
这一刻偎著烛光让我们静静的渡过
莫挥手莫回头当我唱起这首歌
愿心中留著笑容
伴你渡过每个春夏秋冬


You know who you are, I had nothing much more I can say rather then this song... It means a lot to me, maybe even you. Speechless.... Just wich you all the best and have a better future... I mean it...

21/04/2008

Nowadays very easy to get angry… not because of the hot weather, it is because that too many things need to handle at the same time. I could not find someone to talk to, seen like everyone is having their own problems so better not to disturb them. Just need to find a place to express my feeling and release my temper.

I’m hardly control my emotion now, my dad again call me going back the stay with them in Johor. I do not know what I am going to answer him. He sound like very tired, previously he was having a heart attack, so now his condition were not fully recover. Its sound bad, I do not know how to express my concern to him, sometime I was worrying and care them, but just that I don’t know how to express it. And end up I’m only a selfish daughter. Or maybe I’m that selfish, just that I dint realized about it. How am I going to show them I care about this family? Sigh…

Did they think behalf on me? Ok, first of all, which college am I going to? Johor dint have any good college moreover Diploma in Information Technology. After all I dint recognize the place at all, what I means the road from one destination to another destination. Huh!!! Just forget about it… But the main point is I have no friend over there. Not even one, is none… how am I going to live without my buddies? As a parent you should understand, I already stay in Penang for almost 20 years, I have so many friends here; I had too much sweet memory with my buddies here. I really don’t know who am I going to live there without you guys.

I know I’ am not that good as others, but I do thanks you guys so much for being so friendly to me. Sometime I due to be so stubborn, and sometime even made you all not comfortable with my attitude; If you feel so then I would like to apologize here. Sometime I was just trying to made fun of it, but end up I had made someone angry and fed up. What am I trying to said is I don’t know how to express something which I want in a proper way but end up it turns more complicated.

While I was telling someone I going to leave soon, she told me that will be going to leave as well, some more sooner than me. Hmmm… What am I trying to say ah? I was too bad to say that I going to leave soon, but now feel like getting sadder towards your leaving. But what to do, as in life is like that, everyone who born to this world must have the acceptation of get-together and leaving. But I sure our friendship won’t be end up here, but will getting more lasting. Don’t you?

After you leave me, I will be going to leave my buddies as well. I really don’t know how many boxes of tissue just to wipe my tears. Buddies, I really can’t imagine how am I going to live there without you guys. They used to being involved in part of my life seen eight to seven years ago. They use to help me, motivate me, and care me a lot. We had apartment stay almost every years, celebrate birthdays for each of our buddies, hang out for almost every month and many sweet memories it happen between us. It means a lot to me. I do appreciate it, thanks a lot…

Friend is not only share joy and happiness

But we do share pain and sadness

I borrow you me shoulder to lean on

And you help me to wipe my tears

I’m wondering how we will said the same words, same tone at the same time

I’m wondering how you get to know what I am thinking about

When we meet together we bring two different souls together

When we talk together others only heard one voice

Friendship is a refreshing rain on a hot day

Friendship is more precious than silver or gold

Friendship is not perfect, much like we are not perfect

Friendship is the relationship within you and me

No matter how far we are

No matter how old we are

Our friendship will remain the same

This is the promise between us

I hope you read this poem

Remember it for me

Look after it with care

You and me!!