21/12/2007

Last night you called me and ask for my help, your father’s leg was injured; you need someone to send him to hospital. You asking for transportation because of the heavy rain, as you said no one of your friends have car, as a result I called my friend to give you a ride. From 8 something waits until 11 something, almost for 3 hours doing nothing at hospital, where I’m going to have my exam on the next morning. I’m not trying to complain that you are wasting me time. The main point is after complete your daddy settlement, you do call me send your daddy and your boyfriend go home and you will go to drive your boyfriend’s motorcycle to meet up your friends in gurney. You told me that your friend is waiting for you quite a long time and you have to go by that time. Your friends are waiting for you, so how bout my friends who’s didn’t even complain a single words after waiting for 3 hours.

11 something going to pass 12 I only arrived home, I’m going to have my mid-term paper in the morning while I not yet complete revise. Burning mid night oil is a normal stuff for me as i did it almost every night, even I didn’t go out on the night I will still burning mid night oil, its nothing different. The things that made me can’t concentrate on my study is as a friend you shouldn’t do this kind of stuff to me rite? I’m helping you solving your problems, after all you just left it and the reason is you have to go and meet up your friend which waiting for you. Can’t you follow our cars and send your daddy home than only you go and find your friend? Which means your friends is more important that your daddy and even I’m your friends which helping you.

I’m truly and seriously mad about the situation that you done to me. You made me cant concentrate on my study, my brain is stuck there, I’m just wondering how good your friend was treating you until you need to rush over there and left me and your daddy who’s having 8 stitches on his leg. I admitted I’m not a good friend, not even nice enough and not a helpful friend, but am I that worst? I had burning my mid night oil but my brain is not functioning at all. Now I already took the paper, my brain was blank and can’t even answer the question, for sure I will be going to fail for it.

I’m not here to blame on you, is just to tell you that finally I know how important am I as a friend for you, just to help you when you were in trouble. People used to tell me don’t be such a ‘kepo’, in the end you earn nothing. Is my fault to be such a ‘kepo’, so I’m the one who will go to responsible for the entire thing I had done. After all you had uploaded the pictures which you and those “friends” in gurney with all the shine and smiling face. I do tell you, I didn’t feel regret to gave your dad the ride to the hospital, again if I have the opportunity to back to the future, I will still did the same thing as what I had done to you, but will you did the same things to me?

All is my fault; I shouldn’t help someone before I solve all my problems. I shouldn’t help someone while I still need someone for the help. I agree but too late….