21/12/2007

Last night you called me and ask for my help, your father’s leg was injured; you need someone to send him to hospital. You asking for transportation because of the heavy rain, as you said no one of your friends have car, as a result I called my friend to give you a ride. From 8 something waits until 11 something, almost for 3 hours doing nothing at hospital, where I’m going to have my exam on the next morning. I’m not trying to complain that you are wasting me time. The main point is after complete your daddy settlement, you do call me send your daddy and your boyfriend go home and you will go to drive your boyfriend’s motorcycle to meet up your friends in gurney. You told me that your friend is waiting for you quite a long time and you have to go by that time. Your friends are waiting for you, so how bout my friends who’s didn’t even complain a single words after waiting for 3 hours.

11 something going to pass 12 I only arrived home, I’m going to have my mid-term paper in the morning while I not yet complete revise. Burning mid night oil is a normal stuff for me as i did it almost every night, even I didn’t go out on the night I will still burning mid night oil, its nothing different. The things that made me can’t concentrate on my study is as a friend you shouldn’t do this kind of stuff to me rite? I’m helping you solving your problems, after all you just left it and the reason is you have to go and meet up your friend which waiting for you. Can’t you follow our cars and send your daddy home than only you go and find your friend? Which means your friends is more important that your daddy and even I’m your friends which helping you.

I’m truly and seriously mad about the situation that you done to me. You made me cant concentrate on my study, my brain is stuck there, I’m just wondering how good your friend was treating you until you need to rush over there and left me and your daddy who’s having 8 stitches on his leg. I admitted I’m not a good friend, not even nice enough and not a helpful friend, but am I that worst? I had burning my mid night oil but my brain is not functioning at all. Now I already took the paper, my brain was blank and can’t even answer the question, for sure I will be going to fail for it.

I’m not here to blame on you, is just to tell you that finally I know how important am I as a friend for you, just to help you when you were in trouble. People used to tell me don’t be such a ‘kepo’, in the end you earn nothing. Is my fault to be such a ‘kepo’, so I’m the one who will go to responsible for the entire thing I had done. After all you had uploaded the pictures which you and those “friends” in gurney with all the shine and smiling face. I do tell you, I didn’t feel regret to gave your dad the ride to the hospital, again if I have the opportunity to back to the future, I will still did the same thing as what I had done to you, but will you did the same things to me?

All is my fault; I shouldn’t help someone before I solve all my problems. I shouldn’t help someone while I still need someone for the help. I agree but too late….

I am someone...

I am someone…
Someone who had born to this world
Someone just walk by around the corner
Someone who live for others
Someone will be forgotten one day later
Someone will pass away silently

Life creation of god…
Life in ocean was salty
Life in forests was mystical
Life in shadows was enigmatic
Life in caves was lonely
Life in sadness was the tears floating in heart

I am a…
Small child of my parents
Talkative friend of my friends
Unpatriotic citizen of Malaysia
1 out of 6.6billion of human beings on earth

Life comes with up and down…
Life come with challenge, I’ll try to meet it
Life come with adventure, I’ll try to dare it
Life come with journey, I’ll try to complete it
Life come with tragedy, I’ll try to face it

I will…
Will smile when I’m happy
Laugh to share my happiness
Will cry when I’m sad
Silent to remain my sadness
Will scream when I’m scared
Sound out to show my feeling

Life is no fair or unfair
Someone born to be rich and someone is poor
Life is no good or bad
Sometime police due to be irresponsible
Life is no hard or easy
Everyone have to get work on what they want


I hate someone…
Someone who blame on me
Someone who break promise
Someone irresponsible for what they had done
Someone who complaining others
Someone who hate someone

While I’m hating myself…
Hating myself to be irresponsible
Hating myself to complaining others
Hating myself to be that talkative
Hating myself of thinking too much of nonsense

Why am I here?
What am I searching for?
What is the purpose of I’m still leaving here?
Who am I leaving for, myself or others?
Why we had born to death?
Or actually we death to born?

Life creation of god
God create human beings
Life out of our control
We born to be our parent’s child
Life is born to death
It’s just a process on life cycle

L-Life
I-Is
F-Full of
E-Emptiness

12/10/2007

On 12 oct Friday I had went to KL to visit my aunt whose who was giving us a call on Monday mid night 4 something. I am not trying to said I don’t want to go, just that u have to give me some time to take it as I am not good in taking new surprise and need quite a time to digest something. As I had been asking from my friend when would you going to out station? And my answer is somewhere in November… but now I am already in KL…. huh!! actually what happen toward me? I also don’t know what happen toward me, just very moody and not even feel to smile at all…

The day before I had gone to KL I had been PPK by my friends. As I admitted I hate to be PPK by people moreover is my friends. After PPKed by my friends, my friend had told me something about hers love stuff. I am not comfortable with what she had done. Feel like we had different idea and way of solution, so just stop the topic just to prevent an argument before I am going to holidays.

On the way going to the destination, a journey of 5 hour quite a long time for me. As everytime I would bring along me MP3 player. My earphone had been borrowed to someone for almost weeks to go. But due to our both mistaken, so I had a MP3 player without earphone… suddenly feel like my life cannot continue without music. So will going to by a new earphone before going back to Penang.

It’s quite boring for my whole journey. Only green forest and the blue sky with white clouds can be seen in the journey. Just asking myself why the sky is blue in colour and why the cloud is white in colour. The sky is blue in colour when morning and will turn dark when the sunset. So it’s actually affected from the sun nature. Seen the sun is yellow in colour then it is the sky should be yellow in colour and not blue in colour. The sky will only turn into yellow in colour when it is the time to sunset.

The cloud is white in colours. It’s actually the nature process of fogging the air and turn to the clouds, and it will turn into rain when the cloud is heavy enough. When I am stairing at the cloud I mention that the cloud moving as well. So it means that the wind is blowing the cloud. Then actually is the cloud is turning or the earth is turning? So final conclusion is why the sky is blue in colour and not yellow or orange or others colour. It is the earth is rolling in an orbit or the wind is blowing the cloud? Can somebody tell me why our sky is blue in colour?

Seen I can’t make any changes of it, why am I going to think so much on it? In fact I also don’t know why I going to think so much of the nature environment. So am I wrong for thinking too much thing? Or something goes wrong on me? Still finding the solution for myself…. After asking so many nonsense and stupid question, I realized that I am not stupid at all… because at least I still used my brain to think le…agree ma?? HA HA HA!!!

18/09/2007

Life is like that what to be??? Tired tired again still tired…. Last night I was very unhappy with the situation which happens toward me and my friend. I dint really aspect it will happen, but it’s already happen. Actually I am the person which doesn’t like to do something which no meaning or meaningless, but sometime something which is meaningless for me it doesn’t means meaningless to others moreover it is very meaningful to others.

Well is ok…. I just have to accept it, else what can I do? I do think that this party or even will make me very happy but in the end it’s opposite. With the busyness which start rolling in my life from last few weeks even some troublesome from my friends. It really made me feel exhausted rite now…

This morning from 1sumthing sleep until 6 something, woke up is just to do revision for my quizzes, in the end only I know that my quizzes is on Thursday. I had made my final decision; I have to complete my CSO assignment as long as arrived home. Doing and doing…. Still continue doing… just forget that I had promised someone which want to come my house. After completed her problems, another friends give me a call and said want to come and visit me while she want to do something with my computer… HA HA HA… do you think I will said no to her??? Haiz….. Actually I plan to take a nap after completed my CSO assignment.

What to do others then said yes toward my beloved…. While now she is using my computer and internet connection and I am writing this nagging with my laptop. Feel like really need to fix up wireless setup in my house will do…. Hopefully she will complete her stuff as soon as possible la ya… I still have a lot of things need to do…. My beloved called, I have to go le… she need my help. After that will do my multimedia storyboards…. In the end I believe I won’t have time for me even to take a nap…. HELP!!!

8.30pm

18/09/2007

I love you mummy....

A mother's love is consistent and patient, it will never fade.

A mother's love is warm and compassionate, even in the shade.

A mother's love will always help you through the weakest hours.

A mother's love is always like a bouquet of flowers.

A mother's love is strong and will never steer you wrong.

A true mother's love is beautiful in many ways.

A true mother's love is sincere and it takes a mother's love to conquer our fears.

A true mother's love knows the depth of love.

A true mother's love is contentment, just like God's love.

My mother's love is absolutely all of the above.

Happy mothers day

wewe4339
13/05/2007
20:46

You are leaving me....

I love you....
I thinking of you every single minute...

Every time try to get use of you...
Trying to stay longer with you...
You will be the one that leave me behind....
And I'm the one that left behind...

You have the rights to control me...
And I'll be the one that controlled by you...
I trying to manage myself to fit up with you...
But You dint mention it and keep on moving without caring me...

I ask and asked... ask for help....
Ask you for slow down you foot step and wait for me...
But you keep on moving faster and faster...
I had no energy to chase you...

You are so special....
So maybe I'm not the only one to chase you...
But i really appreciate you a lot...
Appreciate from the day i was born out...

You accompany me from the day i was born...
Accompany me when I'm happy or sad...
You accompany me all the time...
I had no reason to stop loving you....

But now feel like i will stop loving you...
Caused you trying to leave me....
Left me a side... leave me alone...
So now i will be the one that leaving you...

You are my TIME....
Everyone's TIME....
I cant control you...
But as i know u will still controlling me all the time...

TIME...
Divide in hours, minutes and seconds....
24 Hours become 1 day and its 7 become weeks...
4 Weeks become 1 month and its 12 become a year....
Today moments become tomorrow memories...

TIME i hate you....
Hate you run so fast....
Hate you caused out of my control....
hate you controlling me....

Time
Is
My
Enemy


wewe4339
06/05/2007
02.32am

Piano is my soul

My soul is the piano, his words are the keys.
Together we compose, the best of symphonies.

How my soul replays his words of the day.
Like a composer writing a play.

I hear the music, as he strikes a key.
an orchestra, is what I see.

Two soul that share a common ground.
a friendship they have found.

What is a piano, without the player.
It's like a soul, without a desire.

It sits alone in the dark,
waiting for someone to light a spark.

A hope or a desire,
waiting for someone to inspire.

To play a song of the heart,
a song of two souls that will never depart.

wewe4339
01/05/2007
17:37